I am a planner. I plan everything from meals, outfits for the work week, activities for the kids, family trips, and daily lessons for my students. Part of my incessant planning comes from being a teacher. We are trained to plan! Part of my need to plan everything is simply my nature. It drives my husband crazy! Did I mention that I often plan his life, too?
Normally, my plans go well. Most of the time, our lives run smoothly because I plan the details. The kids always have snacks on hand. I don’t get caught anywhere without an extra diaper for Darling Daughter. My students have plenty of meaningful lessons. My house always has plenty of food stocked for us.
Occasionally, something throws a kink in my plans. Then I fall apart. Yesterday, it was the microwave. It decided to quit. My microwave, nearly a member of my family we use it so much, decided that it wasn’t going to heat anything anymore. I could not quickly fix a baked potato for the kids. I could not heat up leftover corn in less than two minutes. I could not reheat my husband’s dinner at 8:30 last night when he got home from work. Everything I needed to do took longer than I had planned. Therefore, I didn’t get everything accomplished before I crashed at 9:30!
Do you ever have those days? I have a hard time recovering from messed up plans. I get agitated. I feel angry at the situation and take my anger out on others. I know it is just a microwave, but it makes my daily routines take more time. I haven’t planned for more time.
Yeah, I know I sound whiny. My husband told me that, too.
It is times like these that God reminds me that, despite what I may think, I am not in charge! He is! I don’t have to control every aspect of my life. If I do, He will make sure I learn that He is still in control.
After accepting the fact that breakfast won’t be microwaved this morning and remembering that God is in control of my worries, trials, hardships, and plans, I suppose life without a microwave served its purpose. It became my humbling reminder that I need to just let God have control.